Untitled~ By Elizabeth Bobyr

no,no,no! stop thinking 
drown your thoughts 
suppress your feelings 

dread overcomes you as you fall down the rabbit hole

“stop it!” you yell
to who? 

the clouds, your body, your mind, and any other fill-in 

drowning through music
suppressing through pain
relief found in hideous ways 
just to stop those voices from calling
just to stop those thoughts from resurfacing

you’re fine, you’re fine, you’re fine!

you’re safe 
the beams keep you warm and red
you’re okay
a blanket surrounds you with sounds

these are different from the others 
these keep you occupied

before you know it slowly fades 

why?…..
no,no,no!

the snakes crawl up your body and wrap around your spine 
where did they go they whispered promises of loyalty but where are they now
this time its different there is no sound
your left defenseless as it swallows you whole

you're just a useless shell of grey

they greet you again as it starts again 
where did you go?
you sit there and smile as a crack begins to form
you can see them in the corner of your eye
they took away your tongue 

time goes by she asks if your okay
time goes by he asks if your okay

there’s no relief when it comes 

instead your faced with yourself
you can see what you did now
can they see?
you had to do it
they took your tongue and now your will

instead its just reminds you of the countdown 
its just a ticking time bomb
you're shackled to the floors 
you’ve decided to wave the white flag

instead you’re given time to reminisce 
the good old days, they haunt you
craters begin to form 
you smile as the crack completely breaks it into two 

you begin to question the intentions

was this you?
was this him?
was this it?

just stop thinking 
but it’s not so simple


Author Bio:
Elizabeth Bobyr is a teen writer.