drown your thoughts
suppress your feelings
dread overcomes you as you fall down the rabbit hole
“stop it!” you yell
the clouds, your body, your mind, and any other fill-in
drowning through music
suppressing through pain
relief found in hideous ways
just to stop those voices from calling
just to stop those thoughts from resurfacing
you’re fine, you’re fine, you’re fine!
the beams keep you warm and red
a blanket surrounds you with sounds
these are different from the others
these keep you occupied
before you know it slowly fades
the snakes crawl up your body and wrap around your spine
where did they go they whispered promises of loyalty but where are they now
this time its different there is no sound
your left defenseless as it swallows you whole
you're just a useless shell of grey
they greet you again as it starts again
where did you go?
you sit there and smile as a crack begins to form
you can see them in the corner of your eye
they took away your tongue
time goes by she asks if your okay
time goes by he asks if your okay
there’s no relief when it comes
instead your faced with yourself
you can see what you did now
can they see?
you had to do it
they took your tongue and now your will
instead its just reminds you of the countdown
its just a ticking time bomb
you're shackled to the floors
you’ve decided to wave the white flag
instead you’re given time to reminisce
the good old days, they haunt you
craters begin to form
you smile as the crack completely breaks it into two
you begin to question the intentions
was this you?
was this him?
was this it?
just stop thinking
but it’s not so simple
Elizabeth Bobyr is a teen writer.