Thoughts of a Dancer~ By HeartFlo

I am your objective, your currency of pleasure, your object of desire for secret endeavors
Your makeshift girlfriend, a hired girlfriend experience
Your midnight walk in the park or your Cat-ness in the lion’s den
Your purchased tiny dancer, as I spin in your hand

I am face-less, for you do not see my soul
I aim to please and tease, make you feel as though you have control
Inside my heart is heavy and slowly grows cold, from years of pretending,
Lie’s I’ve told, memories I’ve sold
That’s a part of me, you will never know

I have been made an object of you passions, a lustful table set for one
A de-humanized object for your pleasure and fun

My only purpose
To satisfy you- while my soul sits in silence waiting for this to end
Don’t look at me with masked sincerity, I will never be your friend
 
I am very much aware of this game
You paid my price for your fun
The clock is ticking, time is now up, while I take your money and run

I am face-less, for you will never see my soul
My life was meant to be lived, now its circumstance controlled
As a dancer I am faceless, for who really sees my soul?
Who sees my heart, my struggle, the hurt and pain?
How I had to laugh in the face of adversity and rain
My endurance and the strength it takes to keep on going
When leaving is all I want to do
Numbing yourself to the pain, just to get through

I am faceless for you will never see my soul, for that is hidden in bright lights, false nights, 
And what I have been told

I am an object of your desire, I’ve sold myself as your currency provider, a de-humanized appetizer, 
Your midnight tranquilizer

I am face-less for you will never see my soul, you’ve only purchased my body, my heart you can’t control


Author Bio:
Writer/Poet - HeartFlo. Redeemed ex-stripper who spent years in and out of addiction, and found freedom in writing, and a spiritual renewal with my higher power, Jesus Christ. I currently perform spoken word poetry and write. Performing at various venues.