The cycle of love~ By Anna Waters

I watch you
As you walk
As you laugh
As you tell your stories
And it hurts me 
It tears me apart 
Just knowing 
I can’t be with you
Because you aren’t like me
And you love him
And I’m not him
And I want to die all the time
And cut my wrists
And end it all
All the hurt
All the suffering
But then I see you
And I can’t go
Because I love you
And even though you don’t love me
Not like I love you
I get to see you
And it hurts just a little less
And then I go home
And you’re not there
And I think of you
Because I am always thinking of you
And I remember
How much I love you
And how much you don’t love me
Not like I love you
And it starts all over again
The cycle of pain
The cycle of tears
And you, happy
Happy with him
And sure, he’s great
But he’s not me
And I’ll never be him 
Because you’re not like me
Except for when I think you are
But you aren’t
And so, you don’t love me
Not like I love you
So I try to get rid of it
All of this worthless love
But all the slashes on my wrists do is hurt
And the sinking in my gut hurts more 
And my heart is shattering
And with the prices of my shattered heart
I cut deeper
Cut out the love
Cut IT out
And I can’t
And all I do is hurt
Until I see you
And the cycle starts all over again


Author Bio:
Anna is a sophomore in high school. She is particularly interested in technology for theater and math. She writes poetry as a coping mechanism for dealing with the quintessential overload of teenage feelings.