well you had her and you left her crying on the ground for you
dogged her out had her waiting all around for you
you would smile in her face, then ignore her like she was a disgrace
people wondering why she had a long face
it was because that man used her
pissed on her heart and tore it apart
had her thinking that he was the one
her smile was brighter than the sun
but then she realized that it was a lie
the sweet texts and quick responses turned into no replies
now she's wondering what did she did wrong?
Is she not pretty enough or
She thought it was something real
but instead he turned out to be a dog
looking for his next meal
and when she sees him again for the first time
she wants to break down and cry and
confront him on his lies and spit in his eye
at the same time
but she can't because she knows that that would be foolish
she can't do it
she wants to hate but
she can't do it
she wants to shout at him
but she can't do it
she wants his attention
but she can't have it
she wants him
but she can't have him
and everyday she dies just a little bit inside
and she loses just a little bit more light from her eyes
she plasters on a smile
trying to make it seem like her heart doesn't beat a mile when she sees him
and every day she vows that she will never believe another him.
She prayed that she would never meet another him
never breathe the same air as him
never walk the same path as him
never be in his grasp
never hear his laugh
never witness his smile.
She wasn’t ready;
this is her first heartbreak
something she didn't know how to take.
She didn't know how to shake it off
it stuck to her like oil on skin
it ruined how she saw herself within
but months have gone by
and now she uses it as a lesson.
She’ll never be naive
or fall for a pretty smile again.
Beautiful Dreamer is an 18-year-old young woman who has always loved poetry but never had the guts to show anyone.